Was not referring to you Mike. Are you a she? 
Oh, sorry, David, I thought you were, apologies, but then again, I do have many problems, but I try and justify to myself that I know best how to deal with my problems! Medication can only go so far, you eventually become immune to it, then there's the alcohol intake, not a good idea to mix your medication with the whiskey, so when I drink I don't take my medication because my doctors say it could be lethal! The problem with my approach is that When I drink as of an evening, and I don't take my medication, I suffer during the night and the following morning with withdrawal effects of not having taken my medication, it's a lose, Lose, situation...
What is the answer to anyone in this predicament?
It's not an easy life being on medication designed to make you forget whatever it is that is burdening you!
Sometimes, you need a change in routine, sometimes the decisions that you try to make for yourself, aren't the right choices, but you think you know what is best for you, the truth is probably that you don't!
I don"t want to forget...
I want to remember everything no matter how painful those memories might be, after all those are the memories that made me into what I am perceived to be...
But..
How would you, or anybody else fair in similar circumstances?
It's a lottery, and there are few winners, and millions of losers!
