Sheila had only 4 days left of her previous injection ( last one was 11th July ) and as stated in Ferguson's ws,her vulnerability to anxiety,restlessness and everything else that went with her condition would have been evident,more so with her having smoked cannabis on the couple of days before the tragedy.
He'd stated not in as many words that he'd been against her discharge that year and would have preferred her to have gone to St.Mary's NHS hospital for further treatment.
Sheila's reason for wanting to get out of the clinic earlier was that she was waiting to meet her birth mother who she said wouldn't have wanted to see her in hospital.
Sheila must literally have " held it together " while meeting Christine-------but it hadn't done anyone a favour really,had it ?
I understand why the Defence wishes to highlight Sheila's illness and her plight because it's their strongest card. She was discharged from hospital in March 1985, some four months before the murders, after which time there are conflicting reports of her demeanour. I think by this stage she had become worn down by the vicissitudes of daily life and began for the first time to harbour resentment against other individuals, the "
all people are bad and should be killed" remark just one example of this.
We will never fully know her state of mind those last few days, but the need to lash out, as exemplified in her marital relationship with Colin was symptomatic of a young woman who had gone through the motions of existence, her life planned out by others, with no real emotional security as she faced the harsh realities of employment in 1980s Britain, her talents overlooked, her intrinsic worth undervalued as she realized her financial dependence on the woman who disturbed her equilibrium the most: June. Impossible to fulfil her expectations she sank back in herself, condemned to a state of limbo as the world passed her by.