what was she thinking of mike,with the above in her mind,i cant see the connection
The picture I have of her in my minds eye, whilst she was alone and isolated in the living room where she obviously felt comfortable enough to insert a tampon without being disturbed, and the sudden realisation of her 'impending menstrual period', heavily bloodstained knickers which she had removed there in the living room, must have been one of the triggers which set the circumstances of these shootings into motion. The sudden realisation that she had started to bleed, that she had sat there, or stood there, already brooding, and angry inside, about any suggestion that her parents were going to find a care home so that she could be professionally looked after, and separated from her two young children. There in the living room, in a private moment, a moment of pain, anguish, changes which were taking effect in her body, her attempt to bring sort of sanity to the developments, removal of her bloodied undergarment, the tearing open of the tampon holder, her inserting it with use of one hand, and one of her boys toy gun in the other. Then, after replacing the empty tampon holder on the table, she laid the toy gun down alongside it, before then making her way toward the kitchen, where she placed her heavily bloodstained knickers in a bucket there which had already got other items of clothing soaking in it, belonging to her two boys. After depositing her bloodstained undergarment there in the soak, her attention was drawn to the pile of loose bullets upon the kitchen worktop. Real bullets, loads and loads of real bullets, there in front of her. Where was the gun? If she could find the rifle, she could load it with real bullets just like Jeremy had showed her, where was the rifle? Out she went through the door which connected the main kitchen to the back kitchen in the location of the downstairs office, and the back door entrance to the farmhouse. As she passed through the aforementioned opening to her right was a wooden settle, upon which she captured sight of the rifle. She picked it up, realising that this was 'not a toy', but the real thing, she could do people real harm with this in her possession, she thought...