Quote from Colin´s book. I don´t quite understand him, how can he basically excuse Jeremy who allegedly killed his sons; but in any case, he is not as hateful as the relatives."So what else did I see of myself as I looked into those eyes - into the eyes of a cold-blooded murderer? Part of the key has to be in the fact that there had been many occasions I had also wished his sister dead - as I did the night of the killings - and times I had felt murderous towards his mother for the way in which she violated everybody, especially her daughter. Had June still been alive and continued the abuses to my children that I am now more aware of, I myself might have been tempted to kill her. In that respect, Jeremy had saved me the trouble and was standing trial for something I had also wished for.
How then could I stand as an accuser?"
He wrote the book to try to feel better and come to grips with what happened. Trying to rationalize that things are for the best is a way to do that. How he felt at the time of the murders is quite different I am sure. It takes people a long time to try to convince yourself a tragedy was for the best and to move on.
To say that June hurt his kids by teaching them how to pray and say prayers at night makes you truly wonder about him. He comes off as a complete idiot in many of the things he wrote in his book and it is obvious that their marriage didn't fail simply because of Sheila.
Aside from the few tidbits of factual information tossed in almost as an aside, his book is largely useless. His warped view of things ovciously is not worth much.