On four occasions in my life, I have had the misfortune to have the barrel of a gun thrust against my head. On each of these four occasions the people involved were drug dealers, or business related, and lastly the police. Now, I should tell you that as far as the occasions when drug dealers threatened my life, I obviously survived by trying to appeal to their logic concerning why I should be interested in dobbing them into the cops, when the people they were Plying their trade to, were doing it every day of the week? Drug users, are easy targets of the police, they sing like a blackbird, or a lark, when they get pulled to one side by the filth!!!
On the third occasion I got a gun put to my head, I was merely accompanying my sister (Christine) to a court hearing at Chesterfield, Derbyshire, in connection with a child custody hearing, involving her two children, Joseph and Paul...
On the fourth occasion, my boss had already knocked me down with his 17 and a half ton vehicle transporter!!!
Was I frightened on these occasions?
Yes, frightened that my life might be taken because of some misunderstanding, or another, but satisfied and convinced that I had not done anything wrong. If you want to pull the fucking trigger, then pull the fucking trigger, were the thoughts going through my mind as the drama was unfolding. You will be doing me a favour by releasing me from the torment I felt I was enduring at each point in my life, that I faced these threats. Am I glad they didn't shoot me? Of course I am. But why would anyone want to shoot me? Come to think of it, why would anyone want to knock me down using a seventeen and a half ton truck? Why would anyone want to slash the right hand side of my face with a Stanley knife and push me into a ravine from a footpath on a remote public highway and leave me for dead? Why would anyone want to batter a 60 year old person with mental health issues with a baseball bat, 10 fucking times and leave me for over 9 hours in a hedgerow of the field, and the cops refuse to treat me as a victim?
I have had my fair share of misfortune, but I am still here...
I was not meant to die, at least not just yet!!!