i dont he would such mild words to recall the incedent he is recalling thats why i suspected he dident write it all himself some of the wording doesnt sound like words he would use.
Nugs, ONE of the reasons that Colin used "mild" words MAY be that using stronger, more explicit words would have bought the reality home to him, causing exquisite, almost intolerable pain. I can fully understand his need to write it down but I ALSO understand that he had to write it in a way he could cope with reading it. As you don't know him, I'm not certain how you can be sure that the words don't sound like those he'd have used.